Crush

how lovely you are.
how lonely i feel.
these are the things i think of most
on the train, gliding past the fields
of green and red and yellow.
but all i see is blue
because i am lost in your eyes
in my mind.
this should make perfect sense.
but it makes no sense at all
because i can't stop thinking,
"what if?"
what if you were mine?
what if i really knew you?
would it still be the same?
i can't stop thinking about your eyes.
does this make sense
or no sense at all?
does it matter?
as i watch you across the room
i just want to tell you how lovely you are
and let you know you deserve the world.
i want to be lost in your eyes for real.
not just in my mind.
it would help me focus on these fields,
these glorious fields of green and red and yellow
if i had your blue eyes next to me
holding my eyes tight with a gaze.
then with your arms.
as we sit on the train together
taking in how lovely everything seems
side by side.