Self Improvement

i'm bored. i really wish i would do something with my life or something. i want to learn more guitar, i don't really know how to, though. i only know a few chords, and i'm craving to learn more. but i have nothing to learn from. i wish i could sing more often, too. i'd like to sing more and improve my voice. but i can't, ever. someone is always home. i have no where to go where i feel like there's not someone that can hear me. it sucks. i just want to sing and play the guitar. not for anything, just for myself. for something to do. for feeling like i'm actually good at something. i feel like i don't do anything at all. i can't really say i'm good at anything. maybe like photography and art, but for some reason, i never do these things either. i need to get more involved in what i'm good at and what i want to do. it's the only way i'm ever going to feel like i'm improving myself. i'm just so fucking lazy and clueless, i hate it.

to describe my day, i'd say that it was pretty shitty. i missed the bus, had to do the shuttle run in gym (I GOT AN A, THOUGH!) had to give a speech, took a history test, did confusing things in math, begged for lunch money, almost fell asleep in science, took a spanish test, came home and did NOTHING all day. i'm glad tomorrow is a half day, and i'm glad that the weekend is nice and long. i'm also glad that i'm about to get off this damn computer because my head hurts so bad, i feel like my eyes are going to fall onto my lap. i think i might go pick up my guitar and strum a little.