i'm so pissed off and nervous and scared. i don't know, yesterday i felt like crap cold wise (my cold came back) but i was gone the whole day. i wasn't home from 11 in the morning till 8 at night. it was awesome not having to be home and worry about my mom. today i woke up and i felt like hell. i stayed home. i knew i couldn't handle school. the thing is, i have 2 projects, BIG BIG BIG ones, due this week, and i haven't started or looked into any of them at all. i don't know what the fuck to do. the one is a speech about what career you want to persue, and i just keep thinking FUCK THAT. it's designed to be an easy speech, but i think it's boring as hell and pointless. i don't know what to do. i also have a poster/speech type thing in science which is really gay and i don't know what to do about it. i just wish i could stay home tomorrow again and sleep the whole day and hang out with my sister, but i can't. i have to go to school. i don't want to go to school or deal with anything from school right now. but i know i have to. i'm torn between what to do. haha, i know what i should do but i don't want to. fuck that. i'm just paranoid about being so lazy. wtf is wrong with me?