i know i talk about my dreams a lot, but really.. i love dreaming. it's so cool to wander around in a different world, in a world where everything is so mysterious and.. you just wonder about things so much. i always wonder about my dreams. this is kind of going to be a mushy entry, the things i don't really talk about that much. but i just wanna get this out there. i had a dream last night that i was with this guy. we were in some place with a bunch of bunk beds, and i don't know who else was there or if anyone were really paying attention to us. but our shoes were off, and the bunk bed was big. we were supposed to be sleeping or something, but i just thought.. "okay, you know what? i'm just going to be comfortable. i'm not going to care anymore." and i just scooted up close to this guy and put my head on his chest and snuggled in. he put his arm around me and started rubbing my shoulder and down the side of my stomach. it was really cute. we were just cuddling, me and this guy. randomly. i don't know what he was to me in this dream, but he was someone. i remember thinking, "dude, he didn't shove me off, he's cuddling back. he actually likes me how i like him. this is really awesome" i just felt really nice. it was nice to have someone actually caring about me, someone actually wanting to put their arms around me and not wanting me to leave. it was so nice. then my friend came up in the bed with us, she totally ruined everything.. and she was really annoying. we just layed next to eachother because our moment was ruined, and then after a while, he just says, "do you wanna go for a ride?" like, he wanted to be alone with me. he wanted to talk to me and cuddle and be all cute with me. he was good looking too, i can't really remember what he exactly looked like.. but i just remember thinking.. "he's a lot cuter than i thought." it's just, the fact that someone liked me and liked them back and we were hanging out and not being awkward was amazing. i just wish i could have that in real life. i wish i didn't have to dream about it and it could happen in real life, but yet i do want to dream about it because i know i don't have that in real life. stuff like that never happens to me, i'm starting to think i'm weird because of it. like, what the hell, i'm a 16 year old girl who never likes any boys and boys never like me. and when guys eventually come along once in a while who do like me, something bad always happens. it's just annoying. an annoying love life to live. i wish it were different. but i can't fix it any way. and it pretty much sucks.