Thanksgiving

so, today was fun. i went to my aunt mary's for thanksgiving, and saw the whole family. i love my family so much. i got to see my new baby cousin, and i got to play with little nate, my other baby cousin. they're so adorable, i can't stand it. i can't wait to have a baby. i can't wait to see what my children will look like. i actually had a dream i was pregnant last night, and the feeling of a baby inside me was so neat. in my dream, i was just laying down and feeling my stomach, and the baby was kicking. i can't wait to feel that feeling in real life. the time will come before i know it, and i can't wait. it's going to be so beautiful.

well, i'm going to amber's tomorrow. it should be fun, and i'm excited for it. tonight i want to stay up late and talk to people, and just lounge around in the darkness of my downstairs. but right now, i have a weird feeling.. i feel queezy and shaky. i don't know what it is. it's a weird feeling. i don't know what to do with myself.

sometimes i feel so alone. i think it'd be cool to fall in love. i just gotta wait for it.
"do you believe you're missing out? that everything good is happening somewhere else? but with nobody in your bed, the night's hard to get through."
-i feel that way often. i'm head over heals in love with that song at the moment. it makes me think of nature in a sad way, for some reason.